I wonder if.....
The last week I have struggled because it was the actual "anniversary" of when he told me about his affair. He knew I was struggling so he surprised me and took me away for a very romantic break.
We stayed at the most amazing place, a resort set in a mountain side with absolutely gorgeous mountain views overlooking a lake. The cabin was SO romantic with its own spa and kitchen facilities.
We arrived late afternoon after taking a very leisurely drive to get there, sharing a counter lunch at a very cosy country pub with an open fireplace. At one stage we even went off road :-) for a quicky (lucky we have a 4WD).
The suite we stayed in had its own spa that overlooked the valley and lake. It was divine. We had our own fireplace and after dinner Charlie and I had a beautiful hot spa together under the stars, sharing a glass of red wine.
We originally opened a bottle of 'Arrogant Frog' but it was absolute crap and after only a sip we discovered it was cheap and trashy, just like a mistress, and tipped it down the sink before sharing a glorious bottle of 1999 shiraz.
We jumped out of the spa and layed naked in front of the fire place. Before too long Charlie and I were sharing intimate kisses, long and passionate kisses, hot and steamy kisses, his tongue inching over my entire body.
And as we became one, the shrill ring of my mobile phone broke the silence of passion (I have 2 phones because I have my personal one and also Charlie's old one due to having to change his number because the mistress continued to call him).
We were too entranced in each other to even be bothered checking the phone, so we ignored it, continuing to share each other in only the way true lovers could.
Less than 60 seconds later the ring of my mobile phone came between us once again.
Once again we did not even contemplate answering that call. Our attention was focused on each other. Nothing could come between us.
Charlie continued to make passionate love to me, and a few moments later the phone rang again.
And as Charlie continued to make passionate love to me, we once again ignored the phone. Nothing was more important than the intamacy we shared at that moment.
So as we lay there in front of the fire, holding each other tightly, legs entwined, both of us coming down from our orgasmic experience, we both began to see reality.
What if it was one of the kids? What if something has happened? We should check who it was because it must be urgent if someone calls 3 times in ten minutes at 10 o'clock at night.
I picked up the phone to see 3 missed calls from a number neither of us recognised. I returned the call. And as the phone rang I did not expect what happened next.
"Hi. You've called Mistress, ........" at which point I terminated the call.
You guessed it....she called again. Three calls in 10 minutes.
So I wonder if her "gorgeous man" she was being wooed by is aware of her continued desire to chase Charlie? Or is this another of her drunken imaginings?
And I wonder if "I'm sorry for the times I contacted you by phone, it was stupid of me" is just another of her weak and pitiful attempts to appear innocent.
And I wonder if "I have absolutely no wish to maintain any contact with you whatsoever. I promise you that I am over 'us' and that I am looking ahead and moving forward just like you" actually means "If I am in another of my drunken states that I can do whatever it is that I want to do". Or if it means "I can see you are moving forward with your life but you didn't want me so I am going to make your life hell".
And I wonder if "I am out of your lives" means I have the right to do whatever it is that I please because "I realise I was just a free fuck and suck for you"?
And I wonder if "and I wish whoever the smart arse anonymous is would stop keeping me in it" means "I am still trying to lie and cover my arse becasue I still am obsessed with you".
And I wonder if "After everything that has happened it would be so sad if your marriage didn't survive this. I think it will, and I think it will be stronger and better. Especially if you will please accept the truth that it's not me commenting and causing trouble." actually means "I love living a lie so I will tell every lie to make me look good". Or if it means "I love causing trouble because I am a desperate attention seeker".
I wonder if the new 'man' in her life is no longer a challenge because he left his wife for her and the challenge is now gone. And if she is again out to get Charlie because she never quite got her claws in far enough to Charlie to snag him wholly and she hates failing.
I wonder if she will ever get a grip on reality. Perhaps if she stopped drinking her $5 bottle of Queen Adelaide Chardonnay she would see things from a new perspective.
Somehow I don't think so.
We stayed at the most amazing place, a resort set in a mountain side with absolutely gorgeous mountain views overlooking a lake. The cabin was SO romantic with its own spa and kitchen facilities.
We arrived late afternoon after taking a very leisurely drive to get there, sharing a counter lunch at a very cosy country pub with an open fireplace. At one stage we even went off road :-) for a quicky (lucky we have a 4WD).
The suite we stayed in had its own spa that overlooked the valley and lake. It was divine. We had our own fireplace and after dinner Charlie and I had a beautiful hot spa together under the stars, sharing a glass of red wine.
We originally opened a bottle of 'Arrogant Frog' but it was absolute crap and after only a sip we discovered it was cheap and trashy, just like a mistress, and tipped it down the sink before sharing a glorious bottle of 1999 shiraz.
We jumped out of the spa and layed naked in front of the fire place. Before too long Charlie and I were sharing intimate kisses, long and passionate kisses, hot and steamy kisses, his tongue inching over my entire body.
And as we became one, the shrill ring of my mobile phone broke the silence of passion (I have 2 phones because I have my personal one and also Charlie's old one due to having to change his number because the mistress continued to call him).
We were too entranced in each other to even be bothered checking the phone, so we ignored it, continuing to share each other in only the way true lovers could.
Less than 60 seconds later the ring of my mobile phone came between us once again.
Once again we did not even contemplate answering that call. Our attention was focused on each other. Nothing could come between us.
Charlie continued to make passionate love to me, and a few moments later the phone rang again.
And as Charlie continued to make passionate love to me, we once again ignored the phone. Nothing was more important than the intamacy we shared at that moment.
So as we lay there in front of the fire, holding each other tightly, legs entwined, both of us coming down from our orgasmic experience, we both began to see reality.
What if it was one of the kids? What if something has happened? We should check who it was because it must be urgent if someone calls 3 times in ten minutes at 10 o'clock at night.
I picked up the phone to see 3 missed calls from a number neither of us recognised. I returned the call. And as the phone rang I did not expect what happened next.
"Hi. You've called Mistress, ........" at which point I terminated the call.
You guessed it....she called again. Three calls in 10 minutes.
So I wonder if her "gorgeous man" she was being wooed by is aware of her continued desire to chase Charlie? Or is this another of her drunken imaginings?
And I wonder if "I'm sorry for the times I contacted you by phone, it was stupid of me" is just another of her weak and pitiful attempts to appear innocent.
And I wonder if "I have absolutely no wish to maintain any contact with you whatsoever. I promise you that I am over 'us' and that I am looking ahead and moving forward just like you" actually means "If I am in another of my drunken states that I can do whatever it is that I want to do". Or if it means "I can see you are moving forward with your life but you didn't want me so I am going to make your life hell".
And I wonder if "I am out of your lives" means I have the right to do whatever it is that I please because "I realise I was just a free fuck and suck for you"?
And I wonder if "and I wish whoever the smart arse anonymous is would stop keeping me in it" means "I am still trying to lie and cover my arse becasue I still am obsessed with you".
And I wonder if "After everything that has happened it would be so sad if your marriage didn't survive this. I think it will, and I think it will be stronger and better. Especially if you will please accept the truth that it's not me commenting and causing trouble." actually means "I love living a lie so I will tell every lie to make me look good". Or if it means "I love causing trouble because I am a desperate attention seeker".
I wonder if the new 'man' in her life is no longer a challenge because he left his wife for her and the challenge is now gone. And if she is again out to get Charlie because she never quite got her claws in far enough to Charlie to snag him wholly and she hates failing.
I wonder if she will ever get a grip on reality. Perhaps if she stopped drinking her $5 bottle of Queen Adelaide Chardonnay she would see things from a new perspective.
Somehow I don't think so.
posted by kissmekate at 8:11 pm
8 Comments:
What happened to the silence! Perhaps charlies old phone wasn't a good thing to take away with you.
I'm glad you had a special time away together, I have to admit I am envious.The location of your little getaway sounds completely divine. Hubby and I havn't been away together for a while. Neither of us are very good at planning holidays. Perhaps this will inspire me to make a booking.
Wow! I'm so sorry you and he are still being bothered by the mistress. It sure seems she is dense at getting the message to leave him alone.
The silence was broken by the ring of that phone!
But the location was so divine. I will post more about it on my other blog with further details.
John I couldn't agree with you more.
Ooh, Kate you should post pictures of the location as well!
It's beyond stupid now - why would the mistress call your husband when it's so obvious he wants nothing to do with her?
Darn it, I posted a comment on this just as my connection failed and I think I lost it...
Anyway, this is the gist of what I said:
Kate, you have a lovely way with words and your mountain retreat sounds like it came straight out of a romance novel! I agree that photos are a must, if you managed to take any. :)
I'm sorry to hear that the mistress intruded on your blissful time away. It should've been spent revelling blissfully in each other's arms and instead, you were rudely reminded of a nuisance in your life. I know it must've been tough to put it out of your mind...I must ask, why did you guys keep the no instead of just chucking it out as soon as he switched nos? Surely you don't need to make her job any easier for her?
The three phone calls aside, your weekend sounded so perfect. You two both have an incredible strength and love.
Have a great week Kate.
Sounds fabulous Kate! You are so far beyond where I am at- I can't imagine being comfortable with all of that intensity and closeness yet. Good for you! The bitch keeps bothering you because she is assuming the A was reality, that she was a real person to charlie and doesn't realize that he is awake now and she is invisible!
Sounds like a wonderful getaway, except those stupid phone calls. That mistress needs to leave you guys alone. She'll eventually get the point, but hopefully soon. I read what I think is your husband's blog but I didn't know you had one. I'm glad I found it.
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